Thursday, November 8, 2012

1862 November 9 Fauquier County, Va.

[from the diary of Anne Madison Willis Ambler]

Why is it that I must put unprofitable
after so many Sundays--How little we
know ourselves. This morning found me
in a different frame from that which I
possessed last spring & I have not enjoyed
this Holy day....There is no reason but
my own want of a holy spirit.  I am a
barren wilderness-, there is no pure
living faith in my heart.  Oh, God, for
the sake of they son Jesus Christ my savior
whom I profess & in whom I believe
awaken me to a richer faith. Loose
me from this spiritual deadness &
let me feel that I am thy child.
=My heart is so cold, so insensible=quicken
me O Lord by the spirit of thy grace &
guide me into the haven of everlasting
Spent the day in my room=The children
were noisy & staid in all day as it
was too cold to send them out--I
think if I had had a quiet room I
might have enjoyed reading but
wandering thoughts will not be
controlled in such confusion.  Bless
my efforts to teach my children & make
me more & more careful of their
eternal welfare.

[in left hand margin]
Gen Geary made a raid from H F to Rippon shelling all the way & returned quite late carrying off a great deal of spoils with him.  Cows hogs sheep &c --heard cannon all morning

MSS 15406

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