Monday, November 5, 2012

1862 November 6 Fauquier County, Va.

[from the diary of Anne Madison Willis Ambler]

Thursday, November 6, 1862

Did not spend the day profitably-I
was interrupted by company before I had
finished my reading & therefore was not
prepared for the day.  Mrs Blackburn
& the girls came over & sympathized with
us in our grief--It is not many years since
we were in the same relations towards them
truly trouble draws friends closer together
Mrs B. soon left but the girls chose to
stay till Saturday evening.  We were glad to see
them & I had looked to E[mma?] for spiritual
comfort, but dont know why, but when I
spoke on the subject of religion, she seems
unable to talk.  Why its it, I know that she
is a good girl--Oh: It is sin, sin,  she feels
her own sinfulness & can not comfort me
I will look unto Jesus=I know he is
a comforter. I only hope in trouble  Oh
that I could feel him in my heart=I know
my desire is sincere But my faith is
so small, unbelief so great that I
almost fear I will never know an
abiding hope=O. God forgive me  teach
an humble submission to thy will
do with me as thou wilt, But increase
in me  thy a holy desire to love & serve
thee with my whole heart & give me Thy
Holy Spirit--for Jesus Christ's sake

MSS 15406

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